lies i tell myself

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It's funny, as the new year dawned, I wasn't thinking a lot about resolutions or what I might want to do differently, but now, a month in, I am.  Aside from knocking bicyclists from their seats if they ride on the sidewalk, most of my thoughts have been about myself, if they haven't been entirely motivated by my own actions.  The long drive back from Portland this week gave me plenty of time to think about personal responsibility, and I've been musing on it ever since.

In this case, I'm thinking about responsibility as it relates to creativity. I can't be creative by hiding from my responsibility to just DO it, you know?  That doesn't work any more than hiding from our responsibilities makes us happy for more than just a minute.  You can ask any of us.

So I'm attempting to work through the "writer's block" which is actually just me being lazy and avoiding my responsibilities.  Ask me Monday how it's working out.


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it's a good thing I like to put together furniture from Ikea, because I just put three drawers together inside out.  Complete with those nylon push-in "screws".  Now I get to take them apart and try not to break anything.  I think I'll take a breather first...

Edit: this is much funnier given the rest of the weeknd.

headin' to Philly

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Now that I'm not traveling for a living anymore (what AM I doing for a living anymore?), I have to make an actual effort to see people I love. I'm doing it, even if it's not THAT often, and this weekend is Philly.  I'm actually psyched - it's a long weekend and I can promise we won't get up to much, but that's okay because I'm lazy.

I'll definitely snap a couple photos, though.

Caloric debt or, why am I so fat?

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So I'm intending, eventually, to be somewhat less of a lazy, fat slob. I'm not one for the gym and my lifestyle doesn't really lend itself to hardcore patterning like that anyway, but I've gotta do something, and I've started.  I've been good about playing volleyball (if you're reading this and I'll be seeing you in Vegas, I expect that we'll be playing at least a couple of times over the 6-day trip), and I've started the rudiments of a workout that I'll do whenever I can get the chance.

There's (kind of) a lot more ridiculous musing after the break. Also a much bigger picture of me trying to look cool.

2 or 3 NFL things

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Okay, first of all, at least the goddamn Cowboys lost yesterday.

Second, why isn't there more consternation about the NFL's changes to their TV contracts?  Maybe everyone lives in their home markets or else subscribes to the Total Access package? I miss being able to flip between games I liked in the morning at home. Now there's only ever one game on at a time.  Dumb.  Also, give up on the NFL network exclusivity for Thursday Night Football.  Fucking retarded.  It's like holding games for ransom, and how do you think fans like their games being ransomed off?  Treating fans worse isn't a way to keep them - just ask the RIAA.

Third, can we just agree, collectively, to never use the "official" name of the team from DC anymore? I don't care if we agree on an alternate name (that might be best), but just never using the name on TV or in print anymore would end up being the same thing as having that asshat Snyder just agree to change the name, only it would be a "fuck you" to the dude as well because no one cares what he wants.  This isn't an issue I care particularly about, but since it's easy to do the right thing, why not just make the switch?  And since he won't, we can make a painless change to the way we refer to the team and, boom, problem solved.

Fourth, goddamnit, Eagles!  The Cardinals? The fucking Cardinals?  Then again, we've never been a strong team this year, so maybe we'll pay more attention to shoring up our weaknesses now that we have another mark in the L column and get better.  What happened out there? We looked slow and confused all night, and I'm talking about before the snap. Where was our pacing? Our tempo?

Happy Birthday, Alina!

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It's not a holiday yet, but someday, no doubt, we'll look back and know when it all began.  It's an incredibly exciting time to be me.

Bad Fat Trend

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a graph pointing upwardsI'm just starting to lose my tour weight and get back to LA-weight, as it were, and to start the month like this is disheartening, to say the least.  At this rate, I'll weigh 240 by month's end and be like 27% body fat!  I'll be a medical curiosity, a freak of the weight-gain community! I'll be famous!

Actually, this doesn't sound so bad.

This update doesn't represent an actual emotional investment on my part, I just think it's funny when you have a small data set the kind of extrapolations you can make.  Reminds me of some "news" organizations we could all name, even.  Actually, yesterday I did eat terribly, so today I'll be making some changes, but mostly because I can't eat like that 2 days in a row. Also because I have volleyball with some new folks tomorrow and I don't want them to think I'm terrible because I ate badly and can't move.  I want to come by my terribleness honestly, through lack of practice and general out-of-shape-ness.

Bigger graph after the break.

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